I know it has been some time since I have written. I was getting my book together, which will be out very soon. I know that I had to wait but to be honest I missed blogging very much. Much has changed since the pause in my blog. I now have a rather large twitter following, as well as speaking a various places. My group I started is growing daily. It all amazes me. I never thought by expressing how I felt about my sons addiction would impact and help so many people. I simply started it to vent and see if others may feel this way as well. It was overwhelming, in a great way.
I was shocked to say the least, that were so many of "me" out there! Parents that are going through the same thing I am, yet very far or different walks of life all together But have a child is an addict in common. It saddened me, but brought me great comfort and relief.
I recently have moved, starting over with my life and daughter. Free of all the drama that was where we lived. It was hard. My daughter was judged off of her brothers actions, as well as my "bad" parenting. Having an addict for a son.
We moved to get a fresh start, to begin a life where no one knew about all the drama, turmoil, police visits, lack of money. To start over with a clean slate.
But what I failed to see, that no matter how far I may be from my son. His addiction sill effects me, maybe not so close and directly but it does. I love him very much and will always worry. I worry since we have left, but it is different. I know that I gave him the tools, as well as all the programs he has been in to make the correct choices. So I am learning, to talk to him, not at him. And to have faith in him and tell him I love him.
I hope that this is a great new start not only for myself and daughter, but also for my son.
xxoo
